Missy
Thank you for those feelings. I share them too. And just appreciate your post.
The fear of experiencing grief is HUGE in me too. I'm afraid of losing my sanity in the proces! Afraid I may act wildly in anger. Or, be so depressed, may never feel like "getting up." The extremes...
But then, aren't we strong as you said? Strong to have gone through that?
Maybe we can control ourselves through the grieving process. Like, take charge of the process.
So if the fear is too strong, maybe there are ways to heal slowly if that is what you want.
You are in control.
You can do it. If we had the strength to bear it, that was the hardest part as you said.
Lot of love, Missy.