no, i never thought i would ever, ever get this far....i was in so much hurt for so long. hurt became a way of being for me. i loved him so much and just couldn't "get it"....meaning, i could not accept and surrender to how things really, really were.
i still love him, however, i feel as if now, maybe...just maybe there is some light at the end of the tunnel, and the love i feel for him can just be tucked away.
and of course, always sending up prayers for him and all the other ones still lost out there.