I am on depression meds too (cipramil).
Perhaps the meds aren't for you? I got on with mine OK-Ish.
it could be that you don't need them, and they can give weird side affects.
I also would say say I sufered from depression my whole life.
Cipramil helped my mental collapse but I really dont trust GP's meds. I was offered valium for as long as I wanted it, but crazy as I was I didn't want another addictive drug.
I still take cipramil and it hasnt done me harm.