Oh Josie, c'mere and let me hug you! Us moms did the best we could do at the time. Don't beat yourself up, Josie. There are kids/addicts/alcoholics out there that would kill to have a mom like you. And you know you didn't cause their disease.
Hang in there, gal. Us moms WILL make it and I pray for our children that they will make it too.
Hugs,
Hangin' In