Sending you big hugs Josie and lots of prayers.
I think MG and I went through the same phase with this at the same time. I, too, think that I finally surrendered any thought of being able to change my son (that doesn't mean I gave up, it means that I really let go).
It's a shame that they don't reach out and grab the rope of recovery, but that is all between them and God.
We just can't spend our entire lives as a refection of how THEY are. God gave us lives too, and there is no reason that we can't learn to live well and live happy, regardless of the bad choices of others.
I'm glad you got out, Josie, and I know that just keeping busy can help a lot. WalMart just doesn't know how much we influence their sales!!
