Someday congrats on day 5, sounds like you are doing it for the right reasons this time. Hang in there, remember you are not alone, there are others out here just like you, if you are not in some sort of support group I can tell you that I tried for 10 years to do it alone and failed every time, support groups are a God send to those of us incapable of doing it on our own. After 40 years of drinking I am now on my 113th day of sobriety thanks to AA and my HP.