Sugah
I've been reading Francis Hartigan's book on Bill W. Your question - am I an atheist - just made me think about something Ive just quoted to another member in a PM -
"Yet there are also ways in which Bill never stopped being the man he was before that event. His belief in God might have become unshakeable, but he could never embrace any theology or even the divinity of Jesus, and he went to his grave unable to give his own personal idea of God much definition"
Piercing the hard shell of ego and self-imposed isolation is the start of the "spiritual" journey. Letting in the energy of "outside". That's as much HP as I need to get sober. Today, it's as much HP as I can handle!