I like what pick-a-name said here:
I believe God loves us all but deals with volunteers.
One thing I would add to all the excellent replies you have received is to remember that we can experience religion by going to church and even by growing up in a spiritual home/atmosphere. Although good and necessary it is far different from knowing God in a personal way. I don't know who said "God has no grandchildren" but I like the phrase. If I seek Him I will find Him.
I appreciate your openness and how you're seeking God, I'm sure He does too.
Thanks for sharing.