I've always believed in God so what i suggest may not help,but try.
I believe God loves us all but deals with volunteers. Do you have enough faith to ask Him to give you enough faith to believe? I think that is all it takes.........the more faith you have the more "reasons" you will find to have it. Just my experience. I hope you give it a try.
p.s. "Praying" is just talking (outloud or in your mind) to God just as you would a friend......no special words or phreases are needed nor go-betweens.