Gracie...
24 years of your life is enough to have suffered. Look forward and know that life is short and you have but this one chance to do everything you really want and dream to do. Move ahead and keep as strong as you have (you have my admiration for being so strong thru such turmoil) been and know that it is YOUR turn now to turn the page of history and make your life story better. Keep venting here, write in a journal, and if you ever find the strength - join that support group. Don't ever forget your past, as that is what made you the strong person you seem to be, but instead embrace the fact that it IS YOUR PAST and you are the maker of your future. Isn't that great!?
I hope you have the happiest of New Years and all those years to come!