I hate myself for who I am when I drink. I wake up in the morning with no memory of how my son (he's 4) got to sleep, how I got to sleep and how I wake up with bruises, especially to my face and head. I wonder if I do these pain inflicitions myself but I do not know.
You're in the right place, Harley. Sounds like you're either blacking out or passing out...neither of which is a good thing with an active four-year-old in the house...left to his own devices while you're under the influence. Very scarey...
When I quit drinking, I had trouble sleeping, and my AA sponsor told me, "Nobody ever died from lack of sleep." Have you tried any OTC sleep aids? Actually, warm milk really does work...warming it releases a natural sleep aid, tryptophan. Try not to drink anything with caffeine...coffee, tea, soda after 6:00 pm.
There may be some other forums here that will offer suggestions...look around.