KM, find a meeting you like and a group of people you can relate to. I too felt like an outcast for a long time, but as time went on I learned to open up and reach out. Like Rusty Zipper mentioned, work on you first, and a world of possibilities will open up.
I was fortunate in finding my AA home at the first meeting I tried. It was months before I felt like I belonged, but now I can't imagine living any other way. My life is richer than I thought was possible, I have more true friends than I'd ever dreamed of having, and there's never really a moment when I feel alone.
Stick with it. There is a life without alcohol that's freely offered to anyone. I'm glad you're here.
Scott