Thank you all for replying. After reading all your posts I cried and cried. I was forced to confront my own issues head on. My own insecurities had made me end up where I'm today. I tried to please them as much as I can. Letting them get away with things that were unacceptable hoping they would like me more? Losing so much weight hoping they'll fancy me more? Looking at it from an outsider point of view it just doesn't make sense at all. I just could not see it. I had my priorities all wrong. I had no doubt they loved me. But not as much as they love themselves.