Originally Posted by michski

After about 20 years of abusing myself with cocaine, crank and booze I could barely finish a sentence without completely losing my train of thought. My brain seemed frozen and I couldn't really carry on a conversation with anyone unless I was loaded. I was also really uncoordinated.. dropping things, banging my head, stubbing my toe kind of stuff. I would think of the weirdest things and then freak out because I didn't know why I was thinking all this crap... maybe I was really a closet serial killer? Crazy stuff.

somewhere around 8 months clean and sober I was just fine. I had no problem articulating and could actually carry on a conversation and have a good time. Around 2 years I felt so good that I didn't realize how still screwed up I was when I was 8 months... I can't complain too much about anything now at almost 5 years.. I think I've stablized now except for occasional bouts of CRS, I'm as clear as I ever was. And I was a blonde!