Light bulb moment!
Thanks for that music. I keep reading your post and without realizing it realize that is why I drank too. I liked the feeling of being a happy drunk, more social, more self worth etc.
I'm still new am glad to learn about myself from others. I'll have to do some soul searching if this is why I became addicted. But not going to over analyze as you suggest! I am happy sober NOW and that's all that matters right?