i too have had crazy, waking up in a cold sweat really thought i had relapsed dreams lately! one time i woke up and said OUT LOUD "oh **** i gotta call my sponsor and tell her i relapsed". then looked over to see my dog lying next to me looking at me like i was nuts! lol... but the shame that dream brought me was such a reminder of how i don't want to live anymore. sometimes when i think getting loaded isnt that big of a deal and i can't make it to a meeting or cant get someone in the program on the phone, i start to think of how many people will be so disappointed if i do use. being the people pleaser that i am the thought of letting others can help me stay clean for those few mins, or hours before i can talk to another addict or hit a meeting.
i feel dreams are subtle reminders about how we used to be...
you guys RULE! have a great day.