GS, I was taught that sometimes we need to clap our hands, and live just in the space between the claps. There are times when living one minute at a time gets to be too much for me, so I understand how you feel.
I tried to do it on my own for a while, and actually made it 5 months. But after that my mentality was so unhealthy that I knew I needed the help of AA. I admire your courage and determination, but remember that there's help if you need it.
Scott