Hi Chris,
If you think you could have a problem with alcohol, chances are that you do. Normal drinkers don't have to think about something like that. I drank for 27 years, and thank God every day that I was finally able to admit I had a problem.
Stick around here and learn as much as you can, and if possible get yourself to an AA meeting. You might be surprised at how many people are out there with this disease, and the friends you'll make in sobriety will show you a new way of life.