I hope you get things sorted out, I know exactly what you mean about the chicken/egg syndrome, and I still don't know what came first with me. I just know that I am no longer in pain. I am not sure if it was my four years of therapy, the nutritional supplements, the second step in AA, but I am not in emotional pain anymore and it's awesome. My past and issues were controlling my life and I was diagnosed with all the anxiety disorders and depression. I am so unused to feeling normal or happy sometimes I catch myself fearing the fear. I just got ninety days so maybe its a pink cloud. But have faith, it will get better!