hey tam...i think it would be good if you tried something new on wednesday nights...i know your alone time is important with kids, but maybe for a while you could arrange to take a class or have a friend over for movies...anything to keep you from being alone...
hang in there...you will make it through this...it is very normal for our emotions to be crazy in early recovery...our bodies are adjusting...and until we level out we will feel a little nutty...i have found that zoloft helps me...have you considered talking to your doctor?
i hope you feel better in the morning, my friend...i'll check in and see
love and hugs to a great friend..
ayla