Hi everyone!
I'm breathing, I'm posting! What is up?? I have been feeling so good, I even noted today how much I'm smiling and making small talk. I had stopped doing that because I was sure people would notice my eyes were red or I had the shakes, or even my breath smelled like wine. All of a sudden in the car during drop kid off here, pick kid up there, wham-o, I feel like an emotional wreck!??! My stomache is in knots, I could cry at any given moment. Wed. night had turned into quite a drinking night for me. Everyone goes to church to sing in choir (my kids would be mortified if I sang in public...) so I'm alone from 7:30-9. I would suck down a bottle of wine then throw it out in the trash can outside , then open another bottle.. When they got home it looked like I had just drank 1/2 - 1 bottle..... lovely, huh?
It's not that I want a glass-- I don't get it. I didn't want to let on to my family that I was upset- kind of dumb. They think I'm doing so well- which I am for the most part...
Tomorrow is 2 wks.
This is where I would insert the rollercoaster smiley if they worked..
Thanks everyone!..