Welcome to SR... we are glad you found us... and as cmc said, your not alone in the battle.
I have heard in Al-anon meetings that you can find happiness and senerity ... If the Alcoholic is drinking or not. Please read all you can about this disease and seek out a support group for yourself. You dont have to make a decision today hon... all you have to do today is read, learn and post.
I look forward to getting to know you.