You are not doing everything wrong. Just because others don't agree...that's doesn't mean you have to measure yourself agains their standards.
the sad truth is that many people in this world who we care about will walk all over us and disrespect us if we let them. We have to demand respect. Demand the same respect you give them in the very least. Do what makes you happy and not what you think other people want from you.
I'm glad you're here and hope you find comfort from those who respond. Nothing will change over night, but what's important is to keep pushing forward toward recovery and the rest will follow.
Hugs,
Jenna