Hey lovelife,
How are you now? I'm just now seeing this and I'm sorry that no one has responded yet, but I'm sure that it's because everyone is just getting back from their Thanksgiving trips. Please keep coming back here. I don't really know the details of what's happening in your world right now, but I know that I have felt like you, say you feel, many times before. It is particularly hard when you're young. I promise things get better as we get older. My mother used to tell me that, but I didn't believe her. Now that I am older, I've found it to be true. Please just try to do your best with whatever you are doing, just for today and try not to worry about what other people think of you at all. Your life is not about them. Do the best you can to be there for others, no matter how they respond and then in later years you will never look back and have regrets or guilt. How they respond is their problem. I really hope that you will keep coming back here to talk to others. It really does help alot.