That's great! Hello hopeful1974! Good that you're managing to feel positive. It must be so hard at times. You must, as you say, feel you've missed out in the past, but remember, tomorrow is the 1st day of the rest of your life, and you deserve a good one.
I find SR such a positive place. Sometimes shocking and so sad, but positive none the less. I always seem to come away feeling a touch better.
Keep posting, no matter what. We are all there for you.