oh god michski!
dont even go there!
i fell of the waggon in the last 12 months after a gud few years!! before it was a much bigger problem, i never went back to drugs just wine and i never associated alcohol in the same way...even tho i was brought up in an alcoholic house... but god!
if i thot about how much money i spent in those few years .....thhhhch it doesnt bear thinking about....and money was the smallest damage (i havent thot about those years in a long time) i dont blame myself or i try not to...i was a child trying to be a grown-up reacting to the life and neighbourhood i was living in,if i saw me now? god i would take her in and love her( i have actually! she bit my hand off! just like i would have done back in the day!)didnt expect anything else! but i hope when she is older she remembers us and what we did for her, she didnt know any better.......but i do and MY FAMILY deserve a chance
emma x