the exact nature of my wrongs....????
There's lyers of it.lol
Example,
I have a condition.lol
It's a loning of sorts.
When I get into a relationship with a woman, I lone for another
woman from time to time. It's not too healthy and it puts a strain
on the relationship.lol Someway somehow the woman have issues.lol
Wheather she was like that to begin with or living with me drove her
that way.
Just doing an inventory of my relationships with women.
I had a track record or patterns in my life or relationship with women.
I do love and care for my partner that i get involve with very, very ,much.
I'm loyal and I don't cheat. But i have a condition.
Other times I'll have a radar out or get attractive to women
that is not avaliable or will leave me mentally and emotional abandon.
It stems from being adandant as a child.
I was sent to live with my aunty and she took care of me
and love me in ways my mother wouldn't have.
But i always lone for my mother, due to the mother and child bonding.
Later, i reunited with my mother.
I love my mother very much, but I loned for my aunty.
Becuase my aunty loved me in ways my mother couldn't.
I developed this type of behavior amonts others
so I could servive as a child and it continued into adulthood.
There's articles written about this condition in abandant children
It's like an unresolve anger of sort. And a feeling of not ever being
good enough.
By sharing this with others. I get pionted in the right direction to get
help. And I don't feel alone or life is out to get me or I'm singled out.
I work through stuff like that.