Not too worry I did it too.... Even "snuck" him in my bedroom over the balcony so my daughter would not know.... (YEA.... SO IM SICK TOO, was kinda fun though) anyway....
All part of the process, I stopped when I figured out it was nothing but sex, I still did not mean anything to him on a deeper level. In fact it hurt me more then helped me cuz then I realized how much I did not mean to him. He could get I was giving anywhere..... for that matter what I was receiving I could have gotten anywhere too.
Good to see you back and living for yourself again