morning aztchr
hey!!!!!! so glad to hear your safe and beginning your journey of self-discovery, and self-health.
i've done that kind of meeting with xah too in the past......even snuck around and met him so my friends and family wouldn't know.....now, here's a 53 year old woman, SNEAKING around for a rendezvous!!!!!
i did it.....till i didn't. it took a few times (OKAY! OKAY!....maybe 10 times.....geeezzzz.....this honesty thing that al-anon shoves down my throat!!!!.....(thanks guys...I LOVE YOU!!!!) for me to see nothing was any different cept the waters were getting muddier.
you will accumalte "things" again......how wonderful to be able to do it in sanity and serenity.
hang in there
blessings to you
jeri