Tenny............
I agree with Kahlia on the Xanax. You're just subbing another dangerous drug for the Tramadol. Benzos are highly addictive and have extremely harsh withdrawal symptoms.
Be kind to yourself..............are you able to do a medically supervised detox?? Followed by rehab??
Manipulation is the name of our game..............so in order to get clean and stay clean you need HONESTY, OPENNESS and WILLINGNESS!
Good Luck and keep posting to let us know how you are doing!