Well, today is the first day of marriage counseling...and the anxiety level is at an all time high. My first thought this morning was that I needed a drink badly..my thought right after that was "you idiot, your trying to make your life better for yourself and family, thats the last thing you need". And so I picked myself up and came to work, and will just have to go and see what today brings...Hopefully I can keep it up after the session...I'll be back on tonight I'm sure..