Trish,
I see you all over the place in just 12 posts. Reaching, reaching, reaching. Well, now
_I_ finally spotted you. (And I know you're all over because I just did a profile search, hope you don't mind.
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And this --> ((this)) <-- is a hug in case you didn't know. I like this one best tho:
That's for you. And so is this ((((trishie)))) And Happy Halloween and stuff.
The best that I can glean is that you suffer from depression (intermittant and situational), being the loved one of an addict (your cousin), and I guess you have had some sort of eating disorder?
I'll check again, but right now the biggest hindrance I see to your truly getting better is a reticence to share with others. You MUST talk, Trish. You've got to go to the right people (ppl who are well and sober and blah blah blah - you get the idea) and spill.
This is a good start though, sharing on SR.
You worry is aimed in the wrong direction. You can't do that, ok? You've got to practice puting you first.
TenChips