Im also glad you started your own thread and welcome again.
Sweetie we ALL have shortcomings, we would not be human if we did not.
You really need to remember ... You did not cause this, you can not control it and you can not cure it. His drinking is his problem and he knows this. Dont take on what is his responsibility ... you only have to work on yourself.
I cant imagine how hard it would be to watch my love one relaps after 10 years.... That has to be rough.
I look forward to getting to know you. There is alot of support here and so much wisdom.