Oh, Kermit, you have a broken heart....It will heal! That is the good news, but it does take awhile and hurts like heck, and that is the bad news. Each day it will get a teeny bit better, then there'll be a really bad day thrown in, then truly little by little it will get better. Don't lose hope, you will have love again, and you'll want it and be ready for it, when the time is right. Cry, kick and scream if ya need to, it can help! You are grieving.....we all do after the loss, even when we wonder why we are? It is a matter of the heart, no other reason.