Oh, Those are his favorites: It's just a joke, I'm too sensitive, taking him too seriously, don't you know me better than that, I'm not purposely trying to hurt you, you have no sense of humor, blah blah blah. I don't believe any of it now. I'm trying not to listen to his words as what he said really doesn't matter--they are all intended to control and manipulate me. I'm trying to come back at him before I allow him to suck me in. This is very hard for me as I haven't done this before. If someone throws a rock through your window, you react instinctively to protect yourself. You don't sit around and wonder what kind of rock it was, how much does it weigh, why did they throw it.