Salamander, I have tried numerous times to drink like a normal person. I was successful for short periods of time. However, I always reverted back to the true alcoholic that I am. In fact, things became worse for me over the years. This past summer, I blacked out every time I drank (regardless of the amount). The summer culminated in a DWI arrest (3rd in 5 years). I know that I cannot drink ever again. The hard part has been avoiding situations where alcohol is present. I have to pick and choose which social events I attend. Right now, things aren't so bad because I'm keeping busy. Don't be discouraged by your relapse. I have been there many times. Just keep pursuing sobriety. AA meetings really do help.