Your last response is contradictory. You said you are "trying to stay sober" yet you are still drinking. In addition, if you were to simply stop drinking you would not be "sober", you would be "abstinent". Please note the difference in terminology. If you desire sobriety and the quality of life that results from that, you have to do more than simply "not drink"!
Your alcoholism is still considered active and full blown if you simply stop drinking and do nothing further. The behaviors are still there and they will bleed through any facade you attempt to erect to make it look like you are "cured".