Steps
If you are having trouble with the steps at this point, you are probably going to have even more problems later. I can be very dangerous to recovery to try to force yourself into the step philosphy. I know it destroyed my first effort and then I almost destroyed my life. I like you believe in a higher power, but I don't believe that he gave me a mind to take care of my problems.
I would strongly suggest you look into a program like SMART Recovery. See the posts by the two Don's below which should get you started. Do not fall for the AA myth that the only way to get and stay sober is their way. It has worked for many people and I admire their program. It, however, doesn't work for all of us.
Clark