Today really sucked. I really wanted to use soooo bad and worse than I had in a long time. I had the voice going off in my head telling me not to go to a meeting and don't call my sponsor. That voice was just so full of lies being thrown at me today. I feel the whole choir screaming at me today....... it was soooo rough. I was so moody today and I just didn't want to be around anyone. I went to a meeting and told them how I was feeling. I outed myself regarding the crazy stuff that was going on in my mind today. I'm glad that I did. I feel much better now after the meeting.