Matt, I am new to recovery. I have drank almost every night for the past 10 years. Not sleeping is so frustrating. I stopped drinking in the summer for a week and had horrible nightmares and was up most of the night....sooooo I went back to drinking a little bit to help me sleep. Since I'm an alcoholic it spiraled out of control to drinking enough to pass out in bed which in my brain is called sleep. I totally understand how you feel.