I too suffer from childhood PTSD bot physical, sexual and viewing others being beaten on top of my Vietnam experence. Your's is very real and very common. The biggest thing is the short reletive period of time people understand PTSD. I am in fact in treatment now at the VA Hospital for all of the above. We share 2 computers so I don't have time for more but, will talk more Tuesday. I can tell you that talking and knowledge are key to recovering. And never devalue your feelings. By that I mean some of us put little importance on our feelings when compared to others.