Hey Lost Soul, how old are you? i haven't read your previous posts, but from what I understand, the home life is awful. I am glad you are still in school--please don't stop going to classes. I don't want to preach, but you will NEED your diploma if you want to have opportunities in the future. Have you talked to your mom about the possibility of leaving? If she is not willing to go, god knows there are plenty of reasons why people stay in abusive relationships, have you considered setting out on your own? Are there any healthy relatives or friends that you can stay with until you finish school? If there is no way at all you can move out, maybe finding a part time job in the evenings would help, both financially and to simply minimize your exposure to all the stuff at home. Don't become like your father--you CAN have a great future, you CAN have a great family of your own, so don't give up. Hugs.