Hi lostsoul,
Im sorry you are hurting. I was raised in an unhealthy home and can relate to some of what you are saying.
First, you do not have to use drugs or alcohol just becuase he does. If you are worried about your own drinking could you maybe take a break for a week or so and see how it goes?
As for taking care of your mom, honey, thats not your job. Taking care of yourself is. Also, trying to hide the money from your dad doesnt work very well huh?
Hope you can post more and reach out
