Barely beginning and scared
Hello everyone. This site seems very supportive. I am on day ONE of stopping alcohol. I have done that oh so many times with all of the promises it will never happen again and then about one or two weeks later my mind tricks me into thinking it will be okay this time and I go for it again. I am basically a weekend drinker, sometimes every other weekend but when I do drink, I get wasted. I am ashamed, guilty, and SICK of alcohol and I want to believe I can do this but I don't know how to get confidence. I have never been to a meeting but have been reading the Big Book of AA. Any thoughts would be truly appreciated. I HAVE to make it. My kids are my world, whom I do not drink in front of, but they are smart and know how I sometimes come home and that kills me. Thanks for any suggestions and good luck to you all. Glad to have found you.