Thanks for your replies. This board has helped me. When I've had a bad night I come in the AM and read and reading everything puts everything into perspective.
It was so hard yesterday not to yell at him or to tell him how hurt I was. Before dinner was ready he said he probably wouldn't eat cuz he couldn't keep nothing down so I said "don't eat then" and went on my way doing what I was doing. He slept all day. I don't think he called his boss so I don't know if he'll be working today, but I have not control over that and that's his fault. He'll just have to suffer with no money until he gets another job if he has no job now.
Before I make any big decisions, I need to make myself stronger for my kids.
Thanks again for all the replies!!