Oh, boy.
If you want to use and it's there, you'll use it.
If you want to use and it's not there, you'll have that little space between the urge and the act of getting more. Hopefully, you'd come to your senses in that space. Some do, some don't.
By getting rid of it, you give yourself the opportunity to do the next right thing, which is use the tools the program and your sponsor are trying to teach you.
Keeping it is a reservation. If we want to stay clean, we have to do so without reservation.
Flush the bag.
Peace & Love,
Sugah