62 days clean and I still have a stash
Am I being an idiot? I still keep this one little baggie and I know exactly where it is. I consider it a test, knowing it is there but not picking it up. Well, I did take it out because I was going to flush it, but then I didn't. Is it insane to have it in the house? The way I figure, once I am in the using frame of mind, I am going to use no matter how far I have to go to get it. So there is nothing wrong in having it here. Except I have not told my sponsor because I know he would come and stand in the bathroom with me until I got rid of it. So why am I really keeping it if I know my sponsor would not approve. If it really does not matter to me, why do I not get rid of it? Am I kidding myself? I think my mind is playing tricks.