Hi there! Welcome. This is a great place to start your inner searching. We all have gotten sick and tired of using; that's why we are here.
My recovery path is filled with God, AA and SR. It is a great combo. SR helps when I cannot get to a meeting. AA is great for learning how to live a sober life. God, church and AA are teaching me and helping me become the person I really would like to be.
Congrats on your soul searching I hope you find peace. I have 91 days; this is the longest I have gone without alcohol in 17 years. It CAN be done.