it's your disease......the obsession to drink does not go away over night (believe me). You're setting yourself up to fail IMO......instead of saying you're going to fail, why don't you try saying "I'M NOT GOING TO FAIL". Wish i had more to give you than that, but i still struggle too with the compulsion to use, but i tell myself "Not today......i will not use today"
Try it, what can it hurt?