I think the drinking/drugging must have masked a lot of feelings that are coming to the surface (now that we're clean and sober.) Just remember to enjoy the good feelings while they last, and (with the negative feelings), "This, too, shall pass."
I watched a bit of the 9/11 commemoratives this morning, but it was just too sad. Or, I started to feel anger! I'm going to try to enjoy lunch while remembering all those who were taken way too soon on that day.